supplication
in a fishbowl they tell me the sea is the most powerful of things
a salt wound that cuts deep it mars the flesh headbutt the sea
to learn how to swim if it doesn’t take you first
& maybe i am swimming maybe i am the sea maybe my mother prayed
i do not drown & god always listens & if you believe he will answer
& i lay in the vastness
wala shay
kil shay
my mother taught me to draw stars at different starting points i traced them
my left on top of her right the pencil bridging
the red sea & all the corals on her neck
at night i send stars to fatima swimming borders away
i tell her the quran says the stars are lanterns that ricochet the
jinn so our fates aren’t stolen
she tells me she hopes so
ya fatima there’s no clear sky without you try again when the world
isn’t crumbling in front of us when the sea isn’t so scary anymore
when i can finally speak to you in a language that sings fairouz & bts & sza
my language not too incomprehensible
my vocabulary bringing us close
ameen ameen ameen we pray for each other my mother whispering into the night
ya rabs ascending the seventh sky & i pray for the future for the bukra
for the badain for the inshallah, if things get better if we live long enough
for the friends miles away for them telling me they pray every now & then
so i pray for them too & out of my seas i recite
over & over & over again my velars mix with glottals
& all the honey that was said to heal my throat:
allah, do you hear me?
Jood AlThukair is a writer and the editor-in-chief of Sumou (sumoumag.com), an online magazine for creative youth. Based in Saudi Arabia, she oscillates between writing and making art all while plucking pomegranates, juggling academia, and fighting for decolonization. Find her on Instagram: @jusqu.a or Twitter: @joodthu.
Artwork by Vamika Sinha